So… It’s diary entry time again.
On Saturday I conquered another fear… (YEAH!!!)
Fear of what? Riding my bike in traffic!
I haven’t been on my bike in five months… Five months!!! That’s how long it’s been since I got hit side-on by a SUV during my half-iron distance race.
All winter I kept using the cold weather as an excuse to not ride. However, everyone who knows me knows that was a bunch of bull. I have cold weather gear and it’s never stopped me in the past. Deep down, we all knew what the problem was… I was afraid.
The morning of the group ride it took everything I had just to get out of bed. I actually got up four times, just to slide back under the covers. I found myself completely overwhelmed; getting to the meeting place and riding seemed so daunting, so huge, so impossible. I was such a mess I actually had “pre-race stomach.” For those of you who get this too – you know what I’m talking about.
I needed to make this morning less overwhelming. So, I made a deal with myself… I would cut up the task into do-able chunks – and I would take it one-step at a time. It went like this:
- Just get out of bed.
- Okay, now get dressed.
- We’re doing great! Load your gear and bike into the car.
- You’ve got this… Drive to meeting spot and DON’T turn around!
- Get out of the car… I said, “Get OUT of the car! You’re NOT going home!”
- Stop whining about the cold and mount your bike, now pedal.
It seems silly, I know… but getting from one through six on that list was just too big of a task without breaking it down. I kept thinking about the movie, “What About Bob.” The main character Bob Whiley, has major phycological issues and is afraid of everything, he is completely trapped by fear until one day he meets with Doctor Leo Marvin. Dr Marvin’s claim to fame is his book and technique called “baby steps.” He teaches Bob to break his overwhelming tasks (like going outside) into small bite size tasks that he can handle. So that’s what I did….. I baby stepped my way out of bed and eventually found myself on my bike enjoying a ride.
The take away from the day:
Fear kept me off of the bike, yet when I finally got back on it and road in traffic I wasn’t scared at all, cars would whiz by me and I didn’t even flinch. Looking back, the only thing I feared was fear.
Thoughts before my ride
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